My Love is My Time

I felt like insomnia has hit me again. I was not able to sleep the whole yesterday night. I had stayed up until 8 to 9am in the morning. I am not sure whether it's the gastric, the tea, the heat of my room or just me.

"What is love?" I have been thinking about the same question over and over again these past few days. Am I really in love or I am just someone who pretend that I know?

Love might not be anything in life. But without love, will there be any thing left for living this life. Can we really live for money?

Learning to love and to be loved is part of life. I guess everyone should go through the cycle of love. Every child is born with love, the love from its parent(s)*.

I read about a complete family is based on the love of the parent(s)*. A child is very sensitive to the emotions of his parent(s)*. Therefore, if the parents are in fighting terms all the time, the child will be emotionally affected.

*Single parent might need to do the job of two. But it's not impossible. I am sure the child can still grow beautifully when the parent is always cheerful and content.

I guess I don't know much about love. But one thing I know about is that time is required to build love.

I asked myself a lot of times what type of a husband I want. I guess I needed a husband that can spend time with me. I want a husband that can build a family with me. We should discuss what we want and work towards it. I hope we can learn how to become a better person then a better parent.

I want a husband that will set love as his first priority in life. Love shall be above money, sports or other activities. The most valuable thing you can give to your family is not money and status but TIME. You can use time to earn money, why not use some time to earn love?

I hope my children are content of being able to sit together for dinner every night with their family. I don't want them growing into kids that do not see their parents everyday but has the most advance robots at home.

I want a husband that is able to discuss things with me. I hate dictators who does not even know what is important enough to discuss. I hope we can enjoy the process of working things out and not the result of it.

I hope I can share our financial planning. I hope we can buy things together and give each other opinions. I want us to learn to have something together before having a child together.

It is sad that some guys don't like to accompany girls to go shopping. Some are just too busy. Even if some are not, some won't want to come with his girlfriend for some don't want her to blame him if she have gotten the wrong items she need. Who wants a MAN who dares not to take responsibility? How can he take the responsibility to lead a family?

I am always alone. I guess not every one will have the chance to go through the whole human cycle. After all, getting married and making kids to keep human from extinction does not sound like what we have to do nowadays. I guess we are over populated.

Well, lucky generation! Haha... But anyway, I will still be waiting for my prince charming to rescue me one day! "Some day my prince will come, some day...... " *Day dreaming again*


Took a sleeping pill before writing this post. No effect yet? *sob sob*